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         When I knew without a doubt that the Lord was directing me to San Francisco to live, I knew that I could trust Him to provide for me. How did I know that I could trust Him? Because every place that I had been directed to, and every place that I had ever lived, God had provided for me. I for one can truly proclaim, "Great is His faithfulness, because He has always supplied all of my needs according to His riches in Glory." He never has, and never will fail us, when we trust Him implicitly. 

         Conclusively I knew that I could trust Him, and there were no major concerns regarding my providence. I knew that I would have to relinquish my position on the east coast and travel west to California where I had no employment prospects in whatsoever. It was Proverbs 3: 5, 6 all the way: " Trust in the Lord with all thy heart, and lean not unto thy own understanding, Acknowledge Him in all thy ways, and He shall direct thy paths." 

         Consequently, I had no thoughts for tomorrow, for I knew that in trusting God, tomorrow would take care of itself. But I had a question: 

         San Francisco, Lord? The Gay Capitol of this hemisphere? Why? Isn't that like placing a thief in the middle of Fort Knox and leaving the lights on after everybody has left for the day, with the parking lot empty except for a trailer truck parked with its engine running and a tank full of gas? 

         This was His reply: 

"My strength is made perfect in weakness, I am able to keep that which you commit unto me against that day. I have prayed for you that your faith fail not, and when you have been converted, strengthen your brothers and sisters."

         The Lord has kept me untouched for the past nine years. Do I yet find some members of my sex attractive? Of course I do, but there could never be anyone as attractive in my life, as my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. He's the one. When I think in terms of why He died for me, He is absolutely beautiful. I love Him, I adore him. I believe that the time has come for me to strengthen my brothers, and sisters by telling them that He's the one, and only One. His strength is made perfect in our weaknesses. I love snuggling into His arms every night, and saying, "Good night, Jesus. I'll see you in the morning." When morning comes, He is always there. 

Dorian is a pseudonym.